Dysfunction

Suffocate
I feel nothing
Longing for something
Lie in bed to take your clothes off
Show me what youre made of
Just to soothe me

(All alone)
Leave me here I'm dying
(All alone)
Just kicked me in my face
(All alone)
All alone and crying
(All alone)
I suffocate

I'm not gifted
Slightly twisted
Try hard try hard
To see if I can push you any further
Just to soothe me

(All alone)
Leave me here I'm dying
(All alone)
Just kicked me in my face
(All alone)
All alone and crying
(All alone)
I suffocate

Please believe you'll save me, rearrange me
I can feel your feelings running through me
Take away my sorrow my tomorrow
Heal me

(All alone)
Leave me here I'm dying
(All alone)
Just kicked me in my face
(All alone)
All alone and crying
(All alone)
I suffocate

I'm suffocating
SUFFOCATE (come suffocate)

Just Go
I'm kinda numb
Its so distorted
You left me here with this damage that you've caused
My tortured faces
Ive fucked up places
In my memories none of them I've lost, but...

I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.

It's kinda sick
I feel so dirty
I'm kinda tragic kinda insecure
But I know that I'm the only
One that can fix whatever's wrong I'm sure, but...

I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.

I feel so alone
From all I've become
I'll take you down
I'll feel so down
I'm water while you drown
You're lifted while I'm down
I'm cancer in your womb
I'm the needle in your spoon, but...

I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.

Just
Just
Just
Just go
Go
Go

All these fucking (lies 3x)
All your fucking (lies 3x)

Me
I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means
I guess my mother never loved my dad
And now I wear it on my sleeve

My sister called me just the other day
It felt so good to hear her voice
My problem is I don't have much to say
I guess she doesn't have a choice, and I'm sorry

Look at me I'm so pathetic
I can't believe I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself, save me from my...

My mothers always tried to change herself
She never learned to let things be
She doesn't know how bad she messed me up
'Cause now she seems so fake to me but I love her

Look at me I'm so pathetic
I can't believe I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself, save me from myself

If you push me then I won't fall
I've been programmed to take it all
And shove it way down inside

Like my father (2x)

I'm so pathetic
I can't believe I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me (I'm failing it)
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself

I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means

Raw
RAW

The pictures left with me won't fade
These images affect me every day
Cause of you I feel I dont deserve
The life I see in her

Just don't leave me
RAW

Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold

RAW

I've never been someone who knows
My choices haunt me everywhere I go
Finally did something right for myself
My life to you no one else

Just don't leave me
RAW

Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold

I'm so cold
I feel so cold

I CAN'T TAKE THIS
RAW
I feel so...

Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold

RAW

I feel so

RAW

Mudshovel
You take away
I feel the same

You take away
I feel the same
All the promises you made to me you made in vain
I lost myself inside your tainted smile again

Cause you can't feel my ANGER
You can't feel my pain
You can't feel my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings they will bring you pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again

I feel betrayed
Stuck in your ways
And you rip me apart
With the brutal things you say
I can't deal with shit anymore
I just look away

Cause you can't feel my ANGER
You can't feel my pain
You can't feel my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings they bring only pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again

Mudshovel

You take away
I feel the same
All these promises
You promised only pain
If you take away
And leave me with nothing again

'Cause you can't feel my ANGER
You can't feel my pain
You can't feel my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings they will bring you pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again

You will feel my anger
You will feel my pain
You will feel my torment
Driving you insane
I can't fight these feelings they will bring you pain
You won't take away
I'll be whole again

Mudshovel

Home
I force myself through another day
Cant explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all because of you
I've had to walk away
From everything

I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home

Another sleepless night again
Hotel rooms my only friend
And friends like that just don't add up
To anything
And I try so hard to be everything
That I should never take away from you again
'Cause I heard ya say

I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home

I cannot forget
I live with regret
I cannot forget
I live with...

I'll live through this
I can't see through this
I can't do this anymore

I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home

Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I just wish I was back home
Home

A Flat
Trust In me cant trust I'm the whore I don't believe it
All my life so scarred what for who you can't conceive it
Everything you fear Ill be here you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear so loud, why can't you hear it

I'm OK

All my faith is gone you think I couldn't find it
Pieces falling down shattered now get behind it
In my mind alone, Lost in here I'm separated
Crawl deeper in my hole safe in here from what I hated

All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Dont show can't believe it
Want to show that I'm good for something
I can't you won't let me
Are you running cause your words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me

And I hate myself
And I hate my face
And I hate my world
And I hate my ways

And I
And I
And I

I'M NOT OK!

I'm OK

Trust In me cant trust I'm the whore I don't believe in
All my life so scarred what for who you can't conceive it
Everything you fear Ill be here you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear why can't you feel it

All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Dont show can't believe in
Want to show that I'm good for something
I can't you won't let me
Are you running cause your words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me

I don't believe it (2x)

Crawl
I'm so lonely
You're so beautiful
Not the only
One that's pitiful

Scratched and torn I lay here in pieces
Craving all of your deadly vices
Like to think that I'm not addicted
But I guess I wear it well

And I crawl
While you spit
And I crawl
Through you

Here I am now
Not a lot has changed
Nothing' better
Everything's the same

Late at night I can hear your voices
Talking shit about all my choices
You would think you've known me forever
Just because you know my name

And I crawl
While you spit
And I crawl
Through you

Everything falls apart
Everything... (3x)

Everything falls apart
Everything (3x)

And I crawl
While you spit
And I crawl
Through

Spleen
Cant breathe!
Shut up (2x)

I feel I give everything to you

Cant breathe!
Shut up (2x)

I think theres nothing left to do

Cant breathe!
Shut up (2x)

I don't like today, take it all away
Just like what you say - I don't want you

Kinda like the way, everything is gray
Just like what you say - I don't need you

I don't look like you, do the things you do
But I'm fucked up too - I don't need you

Cant breathe!
Shut up (2x)

I feel you are whats changed my soul

Cant breathe!
Shut up (2x)

I think I'll never lose control

Cant breathe!
Shut up (2x)

I don't like today, take it all away
Just like what you say - I don't want you

Kinda like the way, everything is gray
Just like what you say - I don't need you

I don't look like you, do the things you do
But I'm fucked up too - I don't need you

I don't understand it
Youre killing this planet
The scabs on your face
Its a fucking disgrace
I blame you (2x)

I blame you (5x)

Cant breathe!
Shut up (2x)

I'm don't like today, take it all away (shut up)
Just like what you say - I don't want you (shut up)

Kinda like the way, everything is gray (shut up)
Just like what you say - I don't need you (shut up)

I don't look like you, do the things you do (shut up)
But I'm fucked up too - I don't need you (shut up)

Excess Baggage
Well I know the words, but I can't really speak them
To you

And I hide all the pain that I've gained with my wisdom
From you

And I may end a life, by what I hold inside
All the things that I live with I can't easily hide
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you

Its not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry you with me
Until I'm not alive

When you look at my face, does it seem just as ugly?
To you?

I can't seem to erase all the scars I have lived with
From you

I'm so sick of this place
This taste in my mouth
Cause of you I can't figure what I'm all about
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you

Its not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry you with me
Til I'm not alive