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People = Shit
Here we go again,motherfucker
Come on down,and see the idiot right here
Too fucked to beg and not afraid to care
What's the matter with calamity anyway?
Right? Get the fuck outta my face
Understand that I can't feel anything
It isn't like I wanna sift through the decay
I feel like a wound,like I got a fuckin'
Gun against my head,you live when I'm dead
One more time,motherfucker
Everybody hates me now,so fuck it
Blood's on my face and my hands,and I
Don't know why,I'm not afraid to cry
But that's none of your business
Whose life is it? Get it? See it? Feel it? Eat it?
Spin it around so I can spit in its face
I wanna leave without a trace
Cuz I don't wanna die in this place
People = Shit
People = Shit (Whatcha gonna do?)
People = Shit (Cuz I am not afraid of you)
People = Shit (I'm everything you'll never be)
People = Shit
It never stops - you can't be everthing to everone
Contagion - I'm sittin' at the side of Satan
What do you want from me?
They never told me the failure I was meant to be
Overdo it - don't tell me you blew it
Stop your bitchin' and fight your way through it
I'M - NOT - LIKE - YOU - I - JUST - FUCK - UP
C'mon motherfucker,everbody has to die
People = Shit
People = Shit (Whatcha gonna do?)
People = Shit (Cuz I am not afraid of you)
People = Shit (I'm everything you'll never be)
People = Shit



Disasterpiece
I wanna slit your throat and fuck the wound
I wanna push my face in and feel the swoon
I wanna dig inside,find a little bit of me
Cuz the line gets crossed when you don't come clean
My wormwood meets your pesticide
You'll never get out,cuz you were never alive
I am infinite,I am the infant finite
Come a little closer and I'll show you why
(NO ONE IS - SAFE)
Noises,noises,people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to NOTHING
How does it feel to be locked inside another dream
That never had a chance of being realized?
What the fuck are you lookin' at?
I'll tell you what you're lookin' at
Everyone you ever fuckin' laughed at
Look in my eyes for the answers - typical
I can feel it underneath like a miracle
Everbody in the world needs more than
Lies and consequences to power them
Once again,it's me and no one else
I can't remember if there was a someone else
It's not mine,it's not fair,it's outta my hands
And it's shaking - you'll never take me
(NO ONE IS - SAFE)
Noises,noises,people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to NOTHING
NOTHING!
(HATE) Hate ain't enough to describe me
(SCREAM) Somewhere between screaming and cring
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
(WHY) When do I get to know why?
(BITTER) Bitter as the stink of when I try
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
Pull your hands away
I'm gone - goodbye - it's so depressing
Withering away
Take a look - inside - my soul is missing
All I have is dead,so I'll take you with me
Feel like I'm erased - so kill me just in case
(COVET) Everything around me's mine
(STY) Can't see through the sties in my eyes
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
(DOWN) Scratching and clawing all the way
(STAY) You won't let me fucking stay
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
(LIVE) Is there another way to live?
(DIE) Cuz it's the only way to die
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be



My Plague
I'm in conniptions for the final act you came here for
The one derivative you manage is the one I abhor
I need a minute to elaborate for everone the
Everyday bullshit things that you have done
Your impossible ego fuck is like a
Megalomaniacal tab on my tonque
Youu fuckin' touch me I will rip you apart
I'll reach in and take a bite out of that
Shit you call a heart...
I don't mind being ogled,ridiculed
Made to feel minuscule
If you consider the source,it's kinda pitiful
The only thing you really know about me is...
...that's all you'll ever know
I know why you blame me(yourself)
I know why you plague me(yourself)
I'm turning it around like a knife in the shell
I wanna understand why,but I'm hurting myself
I haven't seen a reasons to stop it
I can't just drop it
I'm just a bastard,but at least I admit it
At least I admit it
I know why you blame me(yourself)
I know why you plague me(yourself)
Kill you - fuck you - I will never be you
Kill you - fuck you - I will never be you
I can't fuckin' take it anymore
A snap of the synapse
And now it's fuckin' war
Kill you - fuck you - I will never be you



Everything Ends
You are wrong,fucked,and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie,motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
Shallow skin,I can paint with pain
I mark the trails on my arms with your disdain
Everyday it's the same - I LOVE YOU HATE
But I guess I don't care anymore...
Fix my problems with the blade
While my eyes turn from blue to gray
God,the worst thing happened to me today
But I guess I don't care anymore
You are wrong,fucked,and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie,motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
My flaws are the only thing left that's pure
Can't really live, can't really endure
Everything I see reminds me of her
God I wish I didn't care anymore
The more I touch,the less I fell
I'm lying to myself that it's not real
Why is everybody making such a big fucking deal?
I'm never gonna care anymore
What the hell am I doing?
Is there anyone left in my life?
What the fuck was I thinking?
Anybody want to tell me I'm fine?
Where the hell am I going?
Do I even need s reason to hide?
I am only betrayed
I am only conditioned to die



The Heretic Anthem
I'm a pop star threat and I'm not dead yet
Got a super dred bet with an angel drug head
Like a dead beat winner,I wanna to be a sinner
An idolized bang for the industry killer
A hideous man that you don't understand
Throw a suicide party and I'm guaranteed to fucking snap
It's evilsonic,it's pornoholic
Breakdown,obscenities it's all I wanna be
If you're 555,then I'm 666
If you're 555,I'm 666
(What's it like to be a heretic?)
Everbody's so infatuated
Everybody's so completely sure of what we are
Everybody defamates from miles away
But face to face,thay haven't got a thing to say
I bleed for this and I bleed for you
Still you look in my face like I'm somebody new
TOY - nobody wants anything I've got
Which is fine,because you're made of
Everything - I'm - NOT
If you're 555,then I'm 666
If you're 555,I'm 666
(What's it like to be a heretic?)
3D seconds,16,8,4,lemme tell you why
I haven't the slightest,I'm teaching your brightest
They're listening,clamoring
All the money in the world can't buy me
G0 AHEAD,LIE TO ME
Tell me again how you're tortured
I wanna know how you followed your ordere so well
You're full of SHIT
You had a dream,but this ain't it



Gently
Gently, my mind escapes into the relaxing
world of pleasure,a pleasure that'll take
my mind off the reality of my life,
my past life...life as I know it now.
And whatever may come,it slowly
disappears to somewhere in the back
of my mind.it will remain there,
until I wish to retrieve it.
Yes,I will stay here for awhile,
for I need the break.A break from the
pressures of life,and everything
that lays in the palm of life's hands.
This mode is incredible.It's out of
this world.Too bad I must always leave it...
...but that's life.



Left Behind
I know I know the faces that have disappeared in time
Find me wrapped in glass and slowly soaked in lime
All my friends have pictures made to make you cry
I've seen this and wondered what I've done to
Calcify...
(I ignore you)
As I close my eyes,I feel it all slipping away
(I come toward you)
We all got left behind,we let it all slip away
I can't stand to see your thalidomide robot face
Don't even try it! You had to be a liar just to
Infiltrate me - I'm still drowning
(I ignore you)
As I close my eyes,I feel it all slipping away
(I come toward you)
We all got left behind,we let it all slip away
Take...this...away...
I can feel it on my mouth
I can taste you on my fingers
I can hear you like the holy ghost
And kill you if you get too close



The Shape
Too tragic to stay with you
Too static to try for you
These scars,they swallow hard
The part of the past that's hollow and dark
Too horrid to kill for you
Too sordid to die with you
Unstable as always,come down
Everything else is just dust and sound
SEPARATE(I've lost my only way)
SEPARATE(I've lost my only way)
SEPARATE(I've lost my only way)
SEE THE SHAPE(Broken and thrown away)
I'd give it all away,come take it all away
You can't resent the fear
Somebody tell me how I got here
I'd give it all to you,come take it,it's all for you
The noise is so damn loud,but
Everything else is just dust and sound
I don't wanna do this anymore
Everything's shit - everything's been taken
Forsaken - gotta start it over cuz I'm hearing it
Backwards - DON'T make sense - DON'T feel better
Who's better?It's not that simple
You gotta figure it out before you make things difficult
It's not a word,it's a problem,the problem was easy
Draw your conclusions - solutions?
Anybody else wanna run?
Contorting,distorting - I am undone
One less propaganda nightmare fixture
Are you getting the picture?



I Am Hated
The whole world is my enemy - and I'm a walking target
Two times the devil with all the significance
Dragged and raped for the love of a mob
I can't stay - because I can't be stopped
Eat motherfuckers alive who cross us
I know you're all tired of the same ol' bosses
Let me tell you how it's gonna be
I'm gonna kill anyone who steps up in front of me
Welcome to the same ol' fuckin' scam
Same ol shit in a dead fad
Everybody wants to be so hard
Are you real or a second rate sports card?
They all lost their dad or their wife just died
They never got to go outside - SHUT UP
Nobody gives a fuck
It doesn't change the fact that you suck
(We are) The anti-cancer
(We are) The only answer
Stripped down,we want you dead
But what's inside of me,you'll never know
(We are) Bipolar gods
(We are) You know what we are
My life was always shit
And I don't think I need this anymore
Now I'm not pretty and I'm not cool
But I'm fat and I'm ugly and proud - so fuck you
Standing out is the new pretension
Streamline the (sic)ness,half-assed aggression
You gotta see it to believe it,we all got conned
All the mediocre sacred cows we spawned
Put your trust in the misson
We will not repent - this is our religion
(We are) The anti-cancer
(We are) The only answer
Stripped down,we want you dead
But what's inside of me,you'll never know
(We are) Bipolar gods
(We are) You know what we are
My life was always shit
And I don't think I need this anymore
I AM HATED
YOU ARE HATED
WE ARE HATED
Everything sucks and I can prove it
Everybody dies,shuffle on,remove it
Individuals,indispensable
I'm the paradox deity vessel
...the other side holds no secret
But this side is done.I don't need it
Before you go,you should know you're breaking down
You'll be rotten be the time you're underground
(We are) The anti-cancer
(We are) The only answer
Stripped down,we want you dead
But what's inside of me,you'll never know
(We are) Bipolar gods
(We are) You know what we are
My life was always shit
And I don't think I need this anymore
(We are) The source of conscience
(We are) Distorted sentients
There's only one thing left
And I can't leave until it's sated
(We are) The absolute
(We are) Controlling you
They're closing in,I can't escape
I AM HATED



Skin Ticket
Zero and zero is nothing but zero
Cancer and people conspire together
Running and running and going forever
Collected and sampled,starving for zero
Come see my cage - built in my grain
Minus the inside and minus the circle
Inhabhit the riddle and fill in the hovel
Wherein and herein,between us and near us
Zero and zero is nothing but zero
Come see my cage - built-in migraine
Keeping myself alive...
through your EMPATHY



New Abortion
I'm ethereal,my children are legion,serial
They stick to my skin like beloved cysts
I tear away with my nails and teeth and fists
Touch the hands of inverted saints
Follow my heart through the threaded pain
Callow man is a sentinel screaming
I see the future,the future is bleeding
Sores,every goddamn minute I can feel 'em now
Like a virus,you will never kill me now
Goin' underground,comin'on like hepatitis
We're out - and you can't reshape us
Another bug in the construct
Tearin' up the main bus B
Zeros and ones are everything - execute me
Everywhere you look,it's like they know
Their fingerprints are hidden by CONTROL
This is where the line is drawn,see
YOU CAN'T TAKE MY SOUL AWAY FROM ME
What do you need to see? Ya feel the impact?
Gotta retract - everybody get back
What is this? It's like a big conspiracy
Fields of dejected morbid progeny
They always say that it's always our fault
But everything we say is taken with a grain of salt
Man,it's always the same,if we talk or complain
We only wanna upset the balance
How's it feel to be the New Abortion?
The only generation to suffer extortion
Everywhere you look,it's like they know
Their fingerprints are hidden by CONTROL
This is where the line is drawn,see
YOU CAN'T TAKE MY SOUL AWAY FROM ME
YOU CAN'T TAKE MY SOUL AWAY FROM ME



Metabolic
Gone - I couldn't murder your promise
Right before my eyes
The revolutions of my psychosis
Kept me outta the way
Once - inside - all I hold is ash
Fall - suppressing every feeling
I'm in so much pain
I have every fuckin' right to hate you
I can't take it!
The hardest part was knowing that I couldn never be you
Now all I do is sit around and wish I could forget you
My demise - I took a life wortj living and
Made it worth a mockery
I deny - I fold,but they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
Who are you to me? Who am I to you?
Is this a lesson in nepotistic negligence?
By default,you are my only link to the outside
Psychosomatic suicide
Where were you when I was down?
Can you show me a way...
To face everyday with this face - goodbye
My demise - I took a life wortj living and
Made it worth a mockery
I deny - I fold,but they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
When I blur my eyes,they make the whole
World breathe - I see you fucking me
And I am absolutely controlling every urge
To mutilate - the one and only answer
So much for memories...
I wanna dress in your insecurities
And be the perfect you - I'm through
I'm out-stretched out for all to loathe
Here we go - the ultimate irony



Iowa
Relax...it's over,you belong to me,I fill your mouth with dirt
Relax...it's over,you can never leave
I take your second digit with me... Love...
You are...my first,I can breath
I find you fascinating
You are...my favorite,lay you down to sleep
It's all that I can do to stop...Love...
So blue...so broken,paper doll decays
I haven't left you yet
So cold...subversive,your eyes are full of bleach
Tomorrow,I will go away again...Love...
YOU ARE MINE,YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MINE,I CAN TEAR YOU APART
I CAN RECOMBINE YOU
ALL I WANT IS TO COVET YOU ALL
YOU BELONG TO ME
I WILL KILL YOU TO LOVE YOU.(LOVE)