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Dead

All I want in life is to be happy (happy) (x4)

(All I want in life is to be happy (happy)) (x2)
It seems funny to me
(All I want in life is to be happy (happy)) (x2)
How fucked things can be
(All I want in life is to be happy (happy)) (x2)
Everytime I get ahead
(All I want in life is to be happy (happy)) (x2)
I feel more dead



Falling Away From Me

Hey, I'm feeling tired
My time, is gone today
You flew with suicide
Sometimes, that's ok
Do what others say
I'm here, standing hollow
Falling away from me
Falling away from me

Day, is here fading
That's when, I would say
I flirt with suicide
Sometimes to kill the pain
I can always say
It's gonna be better tomorrow
Falling away from me
Falling away from me

Beating me down
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
Screaming so sound
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground

(falling away from me)
It's spinning round and round
(falling away from me)
It's lost and can't be found
(falling away from me)
It's spinning round and round
(falling away from me)
So down

Beating me down
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
Screamings of sound
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground

Pressing me, they won't go away
So I pray, go away

Life's falling away from me
It's falling away from me
Life's falling away from me
Fall!!!

Beating me down (Falling away from me)
Beating me, beating me (Falling away from me)
Down, down
Into the ground
Screamings of sound (Falling away from me)
Beating me, beating me (Falling away from me)
Down, down
Into the ground



Trash

How did it start?
Well I don't know
I just feel the craving
I see flesh and it smells fresh
and it's just there for the taking
These little girls,
they make me feel so goddamn exhilerated
I fill them up, I can't give it up
The pain I'm just erasing

I tell my lies, and I despise
every second I'm with you
So I run away
and you still stay
So what the fuck is with you?

Your feelings
I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just throw you away

I don't know why I'm so fucking cold
I don't know why its hurts me
All I wanna is get with you
and make the pain go away
Why do I have a conscience?
All it does is fuck with me
Why do I have this torment?
All I wanna do is fuck it away

I tell my lies, and I despise
every second I'm with you
So I run away
and you still stay
So what the fuck is with you?
Your feelings
I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just throw you away

I tell my lies, and I despise
every second I'm with you
I run away
and you still stay
So what the fuck is with you?

Your feelings
I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just threw you away

(I) Just threw you away
(I) Just throw you away
(I) Just threw you away (x2)



4 U

This shit right here is for you
All your faces I can see
You all think it's about me
I'm about to break, is this my fate
Am I still damned to a life
of misery and hate?
You will never know
What i did for you
What you are
Got me through
I've done for you
I could have, never lived
If it wasn't, for you



Beg For Me

Everyone is looking at me
I can't get out of bed
There is evil in my head
Everyone just let me be
Because when I hit the stage
It is gone and I am free

Goddamn you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, beg for me, beg for me

Goddamn you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, be there for me, beg for me

Tell me, how could this fade?
I am going in shame
And I could not have my pain
Everyone please let me be
'Cause when I hit the stage
And it's gone and I am free

Goddamn you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, beg for me, beg for me

Goddamn you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, be there for me, beg for me

I feel the shame
I'm not insane
The things I feel now
Aren't the same
Who gives a fuck,
if my life sucks?
I just know one day
I won't give up

Everyone just let me be (x3)

Goddamn you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, beg for me, beg for me

Goddamn you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, be there for me, beg for me

Goddamn you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, beg for me, beg for me

Be there, for me (x4)



Make Me Bad

I am watching your eyes
And follow my salvation
There's so much shit around me
Such a lack of compassion

I thought it would be fun and games
(it would be fun and games)
Instead it's all the same
(it's all the same)
I want something to do
Need to feel nothingness
In You

I feel the reason, as it's leaving me
No, not again
It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling
The flesh make me bad

All I do is look for you
And when I fix you
Needed to, just to get some sort of attention
Attention

What does it mean to you
(What does it mean to you)
For me, it's something I just do
(I Just Do)
I want something
I need to feel the sickness in you

I feel the reason, as it's leaving me
No, not again
It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling
The flesh may be bad
I feel the reason, as it's leaving me
No, not again
It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling
The flesh make me bad

I feel the reason, as it's leaving me
No, not again
It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling
The flesh may be bad (Just may be bad)
I feel the reason, as it's leaving me
No, not again (Just may be bad)
It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling
The flesh make me bad (Bad)
Just make me bad (x4)



It's Gonna Go Away

Fu.., fu.. fu.., I got this bad cold
And I got a life, I live it up
I live it up

(It's gonna go away)

I don't want this to go away
I'm so scared
(oh so cared)
I can't think of going on
We all crumble
We crumble under pressure
(pressure)
Pressure
(pressure)

(It's still gonna go away)

.... go live it up
We're livin it up



Wake Up

Wake the fuck up! (x8)

Each day, more frightening
All of us wanna die
The pressure's tightening
I don't even want to try

Should I take all the stupid bullshit
What makes them think they can get away with it?
Im not happy
I wish they'd just...

Wake the fuck up! (x4)

I can take no more
What are we fighting for?
You are my brothers
Each one I would die for
Please just let it go
All our heads are blown
Let's take the stage
And remember what we play for

No more fighting!
I swear I'm gonna leave
Talking shit to spite me
I wish they'd just..

Wake the fuck up! (x4)

I can take no more
What are we fighting for?
You are my brothers
Each one I would die for
Please just let it go
All our heads are blown
Let's take the stage
And remember what we play for

I can take no more
What are we fighting for?
You are my brothers
Each one I would die for
Please just let it go
All our heads are blown
Let's take the stage
And remember what we play for

I can take no more
What are we fighting for?
You are my brothers
Each one I would die for
Please just let it go
All our heads are blown
Let's take the stage
And remember what we play for

Remember what we play for (x3)



Am I Going Crazy?

Am I going crazy?
Come on, and say in taste
Am I too lost, to face it?
And what will it cost
To escape
Nothing is right
I'm so scared



Hey Daddy

Let me see (let me see)
All my life has been (taken) taken
This demon (haunts me) haunts me
They're waiting (for me)
Help me

You fuck me
And I get down, bow
You pick me up
When I am down
I cannot live without them
I do not live without them

Hey daddy (Daddy)
They are taking me
Away
By ...
Facing me (What soul)
My soul
There ... (Hating)
Please help me

You fuck me
And I get down, bow
You pick me up
When I am down
I cannot live without them
I do not live without them

They say this thing inside me
Wants to get out
All it does is scream and shout
I'm trying not to let them out
They tell me to hurt myself
They tell me to hurt myself
They tell me to hurt myself
But I'm not gonna listen

You fuck me
And I get down bow
You pick me up
When I am down
I cannot live without them
I do not live without them
You fuck me
And I get down bow (taking me)
You pick me up
When I am down
I cannot live without them (this demon)
I do not live without them

Hey daddy
Hey daddy (waiting) (x2)
Daddy...



Somebody Someone

I can't stand to let you win
I'm just watching you
And I don't know what to do
Feeling like a fool inside
Feeling all that you hide
Thought you were my friend
Seems it never ends

I need somebody, someone
Can somebody help me?
All I need is some pain
Not just for me

Giving you with this and that
Giving gave nothing back
It's all related to
All the things I do
Feeling like a fool inside
Seeing all the things you tried
I am nothing

I need somebody, someone
Can somebody help me?
All I need is some pain
Not just for me

I look, I sign
I need someone
Inside to help me out
With what
Im trying
I'm crying
I'm praying
In a pile of
Shit
I'm dying
I'm dying
I'm dying

I need somebody (somebody), somebody (somebody), someone
I need somebody (somebody), somebody, (somebody), someone
Someone



No Way

Lately things won't go my way
Lately everything is gray
It feels like something
It feels like nothing

So I came too far
To end up this way
Feeling like I'm God
Feeling is no way

So I'm angry for today
Anger's the only thing I've made
It feels like something
No it's nothing

So I came too far
To end up this way
Feeling like I'm God
Feeling is no way

To live this way
Hating, feeling, falling
To the place where people haunt me
I can't help but keep on
Falling to the place where people know me
I can't wait
To give them these feelings of hating
Keeping in side me
For all to take
Picking at me
They're ripping at me
Ripping at me

So I came too far
To end up this way
Feeling like I'm God
Feeling is no way
So I came too far (Hating, feeling, falling)
To end up this way (To the place where people haunt me)
Feeling like I'm God (I can't help but keep on)
Feeling is no way (Falling to the place where people know me)

To live this way
Live this way



Let's Get This Party Started

When it's crying
Take me on a second place
Which you don't often find
I see a family walking
Always thinking of
Being somewhere else in time

So I fall face down
In a rut
I can't seem to get out of
Please wake me
Please give me some of it back
The feelings I had

Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn't matter
Each time I wake
I'm somehow feeling the truth
I can't handle

Let's get this party started
I'm sick of begging you
You make me feel insane
Which I did to you
Let's get this party started
You make me feel insane
I want to be the one
To make myself sign

Time is ticking
It makes me feel content
With what I have inside
Constant paranoia
Surrounds me
Everyone I see
Is out to get me

So I fall face down
In a rut
I can't seem to get out of
Please wake me
Please give me some of it back
The feelings I had

Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn't matter
Each time I wake
I'm somehow feeling the truth
I can't handle

Let's get this party started
I'm sick of begging you
You make me feel insane
Which I did to you
Let's get this party started
You make me feel insane
I want to be the one
To make myself sign

You make me feel insane (x6)

Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn't matter
Each time I wake
I'm somehow feeling the truth
I can't handle

Let's get this party started
I'm sick of begging you
You make me feel insane
Which I did to you
Let's get this party started
You make me feel insane
I want to be the one
To make myself sign



I Wish You Could Be Me

I am going insane
This shit is all of a pain
I cannot maintain
As the shit gnaws at my brain
I wish you could be me
And then as you would see
How tired I am
And how shit get the best of me
At least you could look at me
While you are rapeing me
You are taking my life and selling it tehehe
Why should I complain?
At least it helps my pain
I am very cool now
And its dashing about my vein
I am going insane
This shit is all of a pain
I cannot maintain
As the shit gnaws at my brain
I wish you could be me
And then as you would see
How tired I am
And how you get the best of me
At least you could look at me
While you are ripping me
At least you could look at me
While you're ripping me
You fuckin' pussy



Counting

I came back
To face what's growing in my head
Please get away from me
Take advantage of what I feel
Yes you do
One day you'll beg for me

So I'm saying nothing
Each day taking that much more
As I'm scheming all my fate
You will be there counting

You just see me as something
You throw around
You were there for me (there for me)
Beaten down to the ground
Yes it always seems
You take more from me (more from me)

So I'm saying nothing
Each day taking that much more
As I'm scheming all my fate
You will be there counting

It's funny how we've just started
They get the money for the things on you
They give ya money, and the girls and the fame
I only do it for the fun and the games
It's funny how we've just started
They get the money for the things on you
They give ya money, and the girls and the fame
I only do it for the fun
That's my game

So I'm saying nothing
Each day taking that much more
As I'm scheming all my fate
You will be there counting
So I'm saying nothing
Each day taking that much more
As I'm screaming all this pain
You will be there counting



Dirty

Keep knocking
Noones there
Pouring down
Near people

My head
By myself
All alone
Ripping my head off
I hurt so bad inside
At least you can see
The world through my eyes
It stays the same
I just wanna live again

Keep hoping
Nothing to spare
So my life
Isn't quite there
Feel like a whore
A dirty whore
Such a whore
Dirty

My head
By myself
All alone
Ripping my head off
I hurt so bad inside
I wish you could see
The world through in my eyes
It stays the same
I just wanna live again
(I just wanna live again)

I'll die again
I'll die again
I'll wilt again
Into you
You dirty little fuck
Dirty little fuck
You dirty little fuck
Dirty little fuck

You dirty little fuck
I will take it (dirty little fuck)
I will take it (you dirty little fuck)
I will take it (dirty little fuck)
I will take it (you dirty little fuck)

I hurt so bad inside
I wish you could see
The world through my eyes
It stays the same
I just wanna live again
(I just wanna live again) (x2)
(Just wanna live again) (x2)