Here To Stay
This time I'm taking it away, I've got a problem
When they getting in the way, not by my side
So I take my face and bash it into a mirror
I won't have to see the pain
This pain is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again
My hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far
All this time I've been waiting
Oh I cannot breath anymore
For what's inside awaking
I'm not, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything and
Oh I cannot give anymore
My mind's done with this
So hey, I've got a question
Can I throw it all away ?
Take back what's mine
So I take my time
Driving humbly down the line
Each cut, closer to the vein
This pain is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again
The hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far
All this time I've been waiting
Oh, I cannot grieve anymore
For what's inside awaking
I'm not, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything and
Oh I cannot give anymore
I'm here to stay (bring it down)
Bring it down!
Gonna bring it down
Gonna break it down
Gonna break it
This pain is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again
My hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far
All this time I've been waiting
Oh, I cannot grieve anymore
For what's inside awaking
I'm not, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything and
Oh I cannot give anymore
Give anymore
Make Believe
I'm thinking of
Thanking all the fucked people
Thanking all the shit I love
They are all the things I've made
Straight from my heart
Begging all the same people
Burning is the same evil
Somehow making me feel sane
Waiting all this time
I've got nothing to hold on
But the faces of my life
I can see before I'm gone
Sometimes I feel it chasing me
All the hate that's breaking me
I realise I'm taking everything
And the kids seem to follow
This time I feel it taking me
To a place I'm hate to be
All along I seem to make believe
And the shit seems to follow
I'm thinking of
Making all the fucked people
Making the bitches I love
Make them die and go away
Pain from the start
All my dreams are ripped apart
Thanking all the fucked people
They are all the things I've saved
Waiting all this time
I've got nothing to hold on
But the faces of my life
I can see before I'm gone
Sometimes I feel it chasing me
All the hate that's breaking me
I realise I'm taking everything
And the kids seem to follow
This time I feel it taking me
To a place I'm meant to be
All along I seem to make believe
And the shit seems to follow
Your life, I hate it
Oh God, can I reclaim ?
Stop and help me
Sometimes I feel it chasing me
All the hate that's breaking me
I realise I'm taking everything
And the shit seems to follow
This time I feel it taking me
To a place I'm meant to be
All along I seem to make believe
And the shit seems to follow
The shit seems to follow
Blame
So I think you are a fool
Hanging on my every word
It's getting ugly
So I'm ugly
Tear me from your heart
Tearing me apart
So I thought you disappeared
Being alone is what you fear
Are you lonely ?
Yes lonely
Tear me from your heart
Tearing me apart
Rolling, and throwing, consoling
Everything that goes this far
Joking and hoping, revolting
All that shit that's who you are
Hoping, and scolding, revolving
Peel it back, reveal the scar
Loathing, exploding, controlling
This is what you really are !
The time is coming
God is saying
You're really happy
What a game
The time is coming
A bed of flames
Your life is over and you're to blame
The time is coming
You've gone insane
You're feeling happy
You've won the game
The time is coming
A bed of flames
Your life is over and you're to blame
Rolling, and throwing, consoling
Everything that goes this far
Joking and hoping, revolting
All that shit that's who you are
Hoping, and scolding, revolving
Peel it back, reveal the scar
Loathing, exploding, controlling
This is what you really are !
Hollow Life
Feeding the fall
I can't help but desire of falling down this time
Deep in this hole am I making
I can't escape
Falling all this time
We come to this place
Falling through time
Living a hollow life
Always we're taking
Waiting for signs
Hollow life
Fearing to fall
And still the ground below me calls
Falling down this time
Ripping apart all these things I have tried to stop
Falling down this time
We come to this place
Falling through time
Living a hollow life
Always we're taking
Waiting for signs
Hollow life
Is there ever any wonder
Why we look to the sky
Searchin' space
Asking why ?
All alone
Where is God ?
Looking down
We don't know
We fall in space
We can't look down
Death may come
Peace I have found
What to say
Am I alive ?
Am I asleep
Or have I died ?
(Haunting me)
We fall in space
We can't look down
Death may come
Peace I have found
(Something takes a part of me)
What to say
Am I alive ?
Am I asleep
We fall down
We come to this place
Falling through time
Living a hollow life
Always we're taking
Waiting for signs
Hollow life
Bottled Up
It ain't fading
Man I got to let it out
Am I quitting ?
Screaming nothing ever come out
I keep feeling lost
I'll never find my way out
I'm not thanking them
Unless the truth can pour out
Give me some courage
Beating me down the (?) sometime
Are you laughing at my body ?
I hate and slide
I hate and slide
I take this time
To let out whats inside
Cause I will panic
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You may bestow my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside
My heart is breaking
Man you really ripped it out
You take pleasure watching as I claw my way out
The hurt rising
Soon it's going to tear my soul out
Its not kosher feeling like Im on my way out
Give me some courage
Beating me down the (?) sometime
Are you laughing at my body ?
I hate and slide
I hate and slide
I'll take this time
To let out whats inside
Cause I will panic
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You may bestow my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside
Feeling the haze as they cut down my spine
Peeling your flesh like the way you've cut mine
Do you feel happy you fucked up my mind
Youre going to pay this time
I'll take this time
To let out whats inside
Cause I will panic
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You may bestow my pride.
And all this hate is bottled up inside
Thoughtless
Going through the pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground
Why are you trying to make fun of me ?
You think it's funny ?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me ?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying when you're dirty in the front of me (?)
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
Come and fill the pages of my fantasies
I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And I'll pull the trigger
And you're down, down, down
Why are you trying to make fun of me ?
You think it's funny ?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me ?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying when you're dirty in the front of me
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
All my friends are gone, they died (gonna take you down)
They all screamed, and cried (gonna take you down)
I got my monkey, got my monkey back against the wall (?)
Gonna take you down
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
Hating
Life is boring
Sleep is boring
Don't stop running
I'm here counting
The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate
The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate
The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate
Really can't fuck with me
There's no where else to go
So I walk but seem to crawl
For I'm giving in today
Now I run into a wall
Cause I cannot find my way
You've got to come with me
I can not stand this place
We are crawling up the wall
And I'll give in this way
We had our chance to run
And now I can't believe
We're going all the way
And now the (?) in place
My life, worry, lifeless story
Give up beating
I'll start bleeding
The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate
The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate
The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate
Really can't fuck with me
There's no where else to go
So I walk but seem to crawl
For I'm giving in today
Now I run into a wall
Cause I can not find my way
You've got to come with me
I can not stand this place
We are crawling up the wall
And I'll give in this way
We had our chance to run
And now I can't believe
We're going all the way
And now the (?) in place
What really do I have to follow ?
Nothing makes sense at all
Taking something for nothing
Watch me as I fall
I'm bringing me down
You've got to come with me
I can not stand this place
We are crawling up the wall
And I'll give in this way
We had our chance to run
And now I can't believe
We're going all the way
And now the (?) in place
One More Time
Always it's coming
And here starts the game
Why can't this puzzle be solved ?
Each time it happens it's always the same
I look down and it starts to fell
And all I see
It burns my eyes
Burning all inside
Caught in the corners of my mind
Beginning over one more time
Taking me over
Taking all that's mine
One more time
Always this teasing
Sometimes I lose faith
Where is my strength to hold on ?
Facing existence
How can I relate ?
Do I stand here or move on ?
And all I see
It burns my eyes
Burning all inside
Caught in the corners of my mind
Beginning over one more time
Taking me over
Taking all that's mine
One more time
Falling through this space and time
Buried in this hurt of mine
Falling slowly like a dream
Falling through a world unseen
Why can I not break this spell ?
I'm in darkness
Is this hell ?
Falling towards this hole I see
This is how it has to be
Caught in the corners of my mind
Beginning over one more time
Taking me over
Taking all that's mine
One more time
One more time
Alone I Break
Pick me up
Been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it somehow
I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone
Now I see the times they change
Leaving us, it seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man ?
Shut me off
I'm ready
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be my own
I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone
Now I see the times they change
Leaving us, it seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man ?
Am I going to leave this place ?
What is it I'm hanging from ?
Is there nothing more to come ?
(Am I gonna leave this place ?)
Is it always black in space ?
Am I going take its place ?
Am I going to leave this race ?
(Am I going to leave this race ?)
I guess God's up in this place ?
What is it that I've become ?
Is there something more to come ?
(More to come)
Now I see the times they change
Leaving us, it seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man ?
Embrace
My life is such a waste
Begging on something to work this time
But why can't I relate ?
Feeling all like who is scared ?
Whats mine
Holding on to faith
Never gave me nothing but despair
So why do I create just to be swallowed ?
I can't take
We have a star
I can't take
We got a fantasy
Come what may
We are the stars
I can't wait
Ill take whats mine
Believing all this time, before a crowd could side
Believing all the basics of everything that I could find
Believing all this time, too far to cross the line
Believing all the basics of everything that I could find
I cannot leave this place
Burning up inside this space of mine
Why can't I replace feelings I find hard to really find ?
I try but I can't taste
Memories they always fuck with me
So why do I create just to be swallowed ?
I can't take
We have a star
I can't take
We got a fantasy
Come what may
We are the stars
I can't wait
Ill take whats mine
Believing all this time, before a crowd could side
Believing all the basics of everything that I could find
Believing all this time, too far to cross the line
Believing all the basics of everything that I could find
All my feelings have been eating all of me
Feed inside
Is there something wrong with me ?
I can't take
We have a star
I can't take
We got a fantasy
Come what may
We are the stars
I can't wait
Ill take whats mine
Believing all this time, before a crowd could side
Believing all the basics of everything that I could find
Believing all this time, too far to cross the line
Believing all the basics of everything that I could find
Beat It Upright
Are you ready for a good pounding baby ? (get down)
Are you ready to get it on ? (get down, get down)
Don't pretend you're not fucking freaky baby (get down)
I will spank that ass just for fun (get down on the ground)
Ass up high
Make a motherfucker cry
It's so good that I could die
Help me stay alive
The time is right
I want to feel it good tight
I'm down to do this all night
I'm gonna deel it up right
I'll behave
Oh my god
Make me beg
My god
Yes I'm ready for a good flogging baby (my god)
Come on beat my ass for fun (get down, get down)
Don't let up till my ass is bleeding baby (get down)
Don't let up until you are done (get down, on the ground)
Ass up high
Make a motherfucker cry
It's so good that I could die
Help me stay alive
The time is right
I wanna feel it good tight
I'm down to do this all night
I'm gonna beat it up right
We're gonna ride
I got my tongue inside and outside now
Don't try to run and hide
Yes it's true what they say about my kind
Are you ready for a good pounding baby ? (get down)
Are you ready to get it on ? (get down, get down)
Don't pretend you're not fucking freaky baby (get down)
I will spank that ass just for fun (get down, on the ground)
Ass up high
Make a motherfucker cry
It's so good that I could die
Help me stay alive
The time is right
I wanna feel it good tight
I'm down to do this all night
I'm gunna beat it up right
Wake Up Hate
We got a fucked up reason to live
Who really gives a fuck ?
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna fuck you up
I wanna break everything
I wanna make it sting
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna wake it up
You gotta get it straight
We're gonna give it up
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna fuck you up
I wanna break everything
I wanna make it sting
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gunna wake it up
I am the burden of my everything
And of its scar
I'll be reborn in hatred
Feeling I can't love no more
I've had to suffer
I cannot wait for more
No loving and no praying
All my hate is for the taking
We got a fucked up reason to live
Who really gives a fuck ?
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna fuck you up
I wanna break everything
I wanna make it sting
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna wake it up
You gotta get it straight
We're gonna give it up
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna fuck you up
I wanna break everything
I wanna make it sting
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gunna wake it up
I am the falling of my happiness
It is no more
Stop loving
Im still hating
Till I can not hate no more
I've had to suffer
I cannot wait for more
No loving and no praying
All my hate is for the taking
I'm, I'm filthy
Wasted piece of shit
I am disgusting
Take me away
We got a fucked up reason to live
Who really gives a fuck ?
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna fuck you up
I wanna break everything
I wanna make it sting
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna wake it up
You gotta get it straight
We're gonna give it up
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna fuck you up
I wanna break everything
I wanna make it sting
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gunna wake it up
I'm Hiding
Maybe I'm insane
Walking on a wire
Maybe I'm the same
Nothing to take me higher
Tell me where to start
Think I'm at the end
Right now feeling pain
Make it go away
Maybe I'm to blame
Maybe I'm a liar
Maybe we're the same
Nothing can start the fire
I can't feel my heart
But I feel the shame
Nothing left to say
Soon I'll fade away
These places all I ever think about is lost in time
These faces haunting me
I'm looking back and they are mine
I'm hiding from the things they say
Doing time and lead astray
Thinking back to times of yesterday
I could fly
I'm trying to find a better way
But I'm trapped
Can't get away
All I think is about yesterday
I could fly
Maybe I'm insane
Walking on a wire
Maybe I'm the same
Nothing to take me higher
I can't feel my heart
But I feel the shame
Nothing left to say
Soon I'll fade away
These places all I ever think about is lost in time
These faces haunting me
I'm looking back and they are mine
I'm hiding from the things they say
Doing time and lead astray
Thinking back to times of yesterday
I could fly
I'm trying to find a better way
But I'm trapped
Can't get away
All I think is about yesterday
I could fly
